:evil: The Ranting Thread! :twisted:

[MrsHernandez]

Oh this is a much needed thread!

I HATE cancer. You came into my life this summer and have taken away what makes me me. You've taken away my ability to mother my kids, be a wife to my husband and I have to have people take care of ME. Just when I was healing and getting better a complication came up from my treatment with you and I am once again at square one. Cancer, why don't you just leave people alone? Or better yet, why don't you leave good people alone? There are plenty of murderers and child molesters that you can visit rather than people who are trying to live good decent lives.

Oh no:(! I'm sorry to hear that:( It is terrible it happens to people who don't deserve it while some really bad people go unharmed through life:(

Thank you. I was featured on the news here because this cancer and my surgery. I hope it's okay to post the link here but if you're interested in watching http://www.fox4kc.com/videobeta/watch/? ... 25facbcf94. It's been a really rough year, hoping that 2010 will be better. Nothing worse than having your freedom to do anything taken from you.

You're very lucky to have such a supportive family and community:)

My friend Wendy had the same thing but since this was about 4 or 5 years ago, she lost part of her left leg from the knee down. She also had part of her lung removed, but she's cancer free now:) I hope that gives you any consolation. She gets around fine because she has a titanium prosthetic leg. This is her- I had the hardest time looking for a pic where she didn't have a drink in her hands lol.

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[MrsHernandez]

Here's my beef-

1.) I am pretty much ready to quit ebay because I am having a nightmarish time with ANOTHER buyer who is suspiciously in too much of a hurry to have me file a claim with the mail for insurance.

2.) I have hardly spent any time with my husband and he is going to be gone for the next 3 weeks (monday through friday).
- He's been busy with trying to get everything fixed for our new home *knock on wood* we're trying to close on, BUT
he does not care about even giving me a SMIDGE of attention when he's done. He promised to spend time with me tonight, but is having dinner with his parents instead and I'm stuck here taking care of my mom.

3.) My husband doesn't like being around my family at all, but I go with his family and I don't object like him. He needs to show more of an effort. I'm already aware that he doesn't like to kiss or say he loves me unless I say it first.... I am really starting to think about a lot of things:(...

[Astessame]

In the past week ALL of these things have occurred:

My babysitter flaked on me at the last minute and decided she can no longer watch my kids. She informed us of this roughly 4 hours before my ex (we live together and work at the same company) and I were due to be at work. Our job requires a 5 hour call out time so I had to beg my sister to come watch them short notice.

I had to offer my sister a job watching my kids. (the previous sitter was watching the kids in exchange for being able to live with us) I also have to drive and hour round trip to pick her up and then another trip to bring her home again. Which will cost the ex and I roughly 720 dollars a month in babysitting fees and gas. Which considering my previous babysitting fees were 0 and I live close enough to my job to walk....it's putting a serious dent in my finances.

Then...on the way to pick my sister up, I was pulled over for having a brake light out and found out that apparently there had been an insurance lapse on the car that I was unaware of. It was single digit cold out so the cop didn't impound my car--which he could have totally done. So I had to borrow money from my boyfriend to the tune of 275dollars to clear up all the fees and fix the brake light so that my car would once again be legal.

Then...right before I was to pick up my sister on another day....my ex is called by our job and told that he's been suspended pending an investigation into some issue that's totally BS (imo) The last time he was written up was his 'final warning' so it's completely possible he'll be out of a job.

Ugh. This is the worst week I've had in a really long time!

[pinkpanther]

After more than 5 years of me being a stay at home mom and after a year of my husband being unemployed due to the company he was working for going under, I was finally able to get a job. I have never been so happy and sooo stressed out and scared all at the same time. Why???? Because my first pay check comes just 5 days, YES 5 DAYS too late. We have car insurance and rent both due no later than the 3rd and absolutely no way to pay it. I don't know what we're going to do.

[Miss_Lala]

I have this friend, who thinks she's my friend UUUGH I hate her, she's always pissing me off!!!!!!! she thinks she's some kind of diva, that rules over anyone else, including me, she likes to say she's my boss like how stupid is that?!?! the worst thing is that I can't fight with her, cause we're collegues and it would be strange to see her everyday .. ugh!!!!!!!!!!

[Arismommy2006]

My supposed 'best friend' took my babysitting job and then started hanging out with the girl's mom. Then got mad at ME when i told her I was hurt by her decisions to hang out with the person who screwed me just before Christmas. (I wasn't able to buy anyone anything for Christmas)

She called me a "selfish {expletive} brat, you are a {expletive} b!tch" for telling her who she could and could not hang out with. Saying how she had to tiptoe around everything I did or said because I apparently ran her life.

Seriously? She was my Maid of Honor in November! She was going to pay for the $45 cake (as a wedding gift) but then backed out. My mom ended up paying for the cake -and- her family's dinner at Outback!

I don't know what's worse. The fact that she thinks I'm the bad guy, or I'm glad she's out of my life.

[ErikaxElectrik]

I have sooo many things to rant about today that I've been bottling up for the past month...!

--I HATE the fact that my school thinks that I should come to school even though I have a fever of 103 and I'm throwing up every couple of minutes. I'm sorry that this sickness lasted for more than 8 days and that I was unable to even get out of bed to go listen to half drunk, impatient teachers lecture me on something they don't even know about themselves. I hate the fact that they're probably going to kick me out of JROTC to make room for me to RETAKE the 2 classes that I lost credit for because THEY took the credits from me(I passed both classes with an A!) because I was unable to be at school!! UUGH!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They have completely ruined any chances I had of becoming a U.S. Navy pilot...and have made me feel like an idiot as well.

--I hate living with depression. I hate how no one ever understands what it feels like to be insanely depressed when I try to talk to them. I hate how my friends always tell me "Ohh, you can talk to me about it" but get mad when I try. I hate having to cry myself to sleep every single night, only to wake up crying again. I hate having to BOTTLE THIS UP. I hate thinking about suicide. I hate feeling like a failure(the above situation about school does not help at all). I hate feeling like my life is worthless. I feel like I have no reason to even be alive. I have nothing to live for. My family thinks I'm a stupid failure because of school, my "friends" don't seem to like me anymore, no one wants me, UGH...I HATE THIS!

[Aro]

I know what it's like to live with depression babe, sometimes it feels like pushing liquid shit up hill both ways .. and then, sometimes, it's worse. You're more than welcome to message me if you want to vent, or someone to chat to. Yeah, weird arse stranger on a forum .. lol .. but thought I'd offer .. no one should ever have to feel they're alone, and no one who has the balls to post that they feel this way should ever go unanswered ..

[Astessame]

I know what it's like to live with depression as well. I know that feeling of people wanting to know what's in your head but then when you start to spill...they realize they'd really wished you kept quiet. That feeling of being hopeless and helpless...crying for no apparent reason. Emotions running you ragged. I'm sorry you feel the way you do and think you're very brave for posting it.

[Daisylou]

There are a lot of people who are depressed and feel they can't say anything. I too am one, I bottle up every feeling. I can't explain why. I don't know why I feel the way I do 90 % of the time. It just sucks that I feel that there isn't anyone to talk or anyone that understands what we go through. It feels like crap. I like to vent in areas where nobody knows me, that way I don't feel like I'm geting judged. And if I am at least it's by people who i'll never meet.

[navywendy00]

After more than 5 years of me being a stay at home mom and after a year of my husband being unemployed due to the company he was working for going under, I was finally able to get a job. I have never been so happy and sooo stressed out and scared all at the same time. Why???? Because my first pay check comes just 5 days, YES 5 DAYS too late. We have car insurance and rent both due no later than the 3rd and absolutely no way to pay it. I don't know what we're going to do.

i know this sounds bad, but try a payday loan. it will cost you roughly 20 bucks if you only have it for 7 days. then you can pay the bills and pay the loan back when you get paid. also know that by law, insurance and rent must have a grace period. also, you can send a check to the insurance on THE DAY it is due, and as long as it is post marked on that day, they cant do crap. in general it takes 5-7 days (at least for me anyways) to see a check clear for my bills. try talking to the landlord too...if youve never been late and are a good tenant they will usually work with you. good luck!

[Aro]

Depression is reasonably common, 1 in 4 woman and 1 in 10 men (though, statistics on men are possibly more similar to woman than recorded as men are even less inclined than woman to speak out about it or seek help) will experience depression at some point in their life. However, more importantly, you should know that a third of people suffer from a mental illness, and depression is one of the most common symptoms within a number of different mental illnesses.

If you have depression (or any other mental illness), you need to talk to people about it, and you need to go see a doctor.

You're doing absolutely no one any favours bottling up how you feel, least of all yourself.

[brenlorken]

--I hate living with depression. I hate how no one ever understands what it feels like to be insanely depressed when I try to talk to them. I hate how my friends always tell me "Ohh, you can talk to me about it" but get mad when I try. I hate having to cry myself to sleep every single night, only to wake up crying again. I hate having to BOTTLE THIS UP. I hate thinking about suicide. I hate feeling like a failure(the above situation about school does not help at all). I hate feeling like my life is worthless. I feel like I have no reason to even be alive. I have nothing to live for. My family thinks I'm a stupid failure because of school, my "friends" don't seem to like me anymore, no one wants me, UGH...I HATE THIS!

(((HUGS))) I know what it's like too. You are not alone.

I hate it when I get upset about not being able to wear high heels, nice(er) clothes, go dancing all night, not being able to go to the gym or teach (certified Spinning instructor and Group X certified) and people tell me "that stuff doesn't matter, you should be happy to be alive" . Seriously. I am happy to be alive and be here for my kids but I should be able to be sad and vent about somethings, right?

[MrsHernandez]

we're in the process of closing on the sale of a house and my husband is in danger of losing his job:(

He's a bank examiner and his 1 year probation is almost up, but he got some pretty negative feedback on his examination reports of some of the banks he examined from his supervisors and he has these last 3 weeks to show a vast improvement or they won't keep him! This is Target (he worked for them until a similar situation happened, but he quit) all over again:( except we didn't have a potential house payment to worry about!

[ErikaxElectrik]

--I hate living with depression. I hate how no one ever understands what it feels like to be insanely depressed when I try to talk to them. I hate how my friends always tell me "Ohh, you can talk to me about it" but get mad when I try. I hate having to cry myself to sleep every single night, only to wake up crying again. I hate having to BOTTLE THIS UP. I hate thinking about suicide. I hate feeling like a failure(the above situation about school does not help at all). I hate feeling like my life is worthless. I feel like I have no reason to even be alive. I have nothing to live for. My family thinks I'm a stupid failure because of school, my "friends" don't seem to like me anymore, no one wants me, UGH...I HATE THIS!

(((HUGS))) I know what it's like too. You are not alone.

I hate it when I get upset about not being able to wear high heels, nice(er) clothes, go dancing all night, not being able to go to the gym or teach (certified Spinning instructor and Group X certified) and people tell me "that stuff doesn't matter, you should be happy to be alive" . Seriously. I am happy to be alive and be here for my kids but I should be able to be sad and vent about somethings, right?

Yeah, I know how that feels too. It's great to be alive, yeah, but not being able to do the things you want really sucks and you have every right to be upset about it. It's like people expect you to be happy and content ALL the time, ya know?